Just want to second what JuJu & Job said. You really are amazing. I've only recently been back here after taking a year off the boards to deal with my own D.
Anyone would be blessed to have you as a friend.
Dad's are tough. Mine left my mom years ago when I was 17 and proceeded to marry 4 more times before his 5th wife, who he has been with (?) 15 years or so?
I remembered a convo with my brother and he said "When are you going to stop being surprised by his behavior?"
I realized this was true of my XH and my dad and, really most people in my life. I had to accept who they were - and work on my boundaries.
My dad and I are very close now, but it's taken some very tough conversations (and I had a lot of therapy) to get here.
You don't need your dad to be your rock. You have proven that with help from friends and those around you - that you ARE the rock. Don't forget that now.
Of course I'm not going to lie - It would be great for you to have a 'rock' right now, but it's a desire not a necessity. (I'm in the same boat. No rock.) In the meantime, take whatever time you want to be sad, lonely, a mix - just don't stay there. And I know you won't. I've read your story. : )
Your posts have helped me tremendously.
big hugs ((((G))))
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
