Juju, I don’t think anyone has ever spoke so highly of me. Thank you. It actually made me cry a little.
I imagine all these years with him would have killed the best parts of me. You both are right, I’m happy to have preserved my gifts as a human, I would hate for someone else to take them away from me. I’ve luckily knocked those thoughts out of me. Just seeing it was rough, but I certainly know that social media doesn’t show it all. Usually only the good parts. What is shown is what that person wants the world to see.
My reality is I’m barely getting through most days. But I am getting through. My foot only got worse since surgery and it’s my Achilles now and I basically cried to my podiatrist yesterday ( I’ve been seeing him for 5 years and he is considered a colleague now too) and he legit felt bad. I have to imobilize my ankle for a month which means I can’t do much and I can’t use my brand new spin bike. It is what it is. This needs to heal. I can barely walk to my car. I want to be ready by spring because I want to hike and bike and do all the fun outdoor things you can do solo and during a pandemic. So I’m going to what I have to do.
My dad had this guy he employs for his coop ( my dad is the president) come and put a new ceiling and lights in my living room . A gift from my dad. We all know how those gifts go. He didn’t get a price until it was done, then he sent the cost to me in a text ( and he got overcharged but won’t hear it) I had asked him if it was a gift not to send the price. He did it anyways and I called him out on it. Pretty sure he is mad at me. I mean come in, who says “ I’m going to give you a gift, and this is how much it costs?!?”
Anyways, it is what it is. I predicted this was going to play out as it did.
I’m off today, finally. I was exhausted and getting cranky. Unfortunately I didn’t take my sleeping pill last night and didn’t sleep. Oh well.
