I'm glad you posted a bit about your situation. You lurked for quite a while and I thought you may have been very hesitant to post about your situation.

I'm also glad that this site provide a safe place for you to land and were able to find some comfort from the words and advice of others.

The door is always open, so please, feel free to come back around and chat w/us.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.