How about telling us something about yourself? You've posted a few times, but we have never gotten much from your postings as to what is going on w/you and your life since 2018. We would like to help you if we can, but we need to know a bit more about you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.