I'm wondering a lot about what you post. This post is going to come across as very harsh, but i think you need serious help !
In 12 months you have not mentioned any of the abuse your ex husband put you through. Now suddenly, you have painted a very negative picture of him.
The whole ex story reminds me of a couple i knew from school. They got married, had children, he ended it due to her instability - For 12 months she tried to get him back, until he filed - Suddenly she is telling people he was abusive. He was devestated, that she would say such a thing....
I am friends with both of them on FB, and she frequently posts memos about surviving abuse and how she has become stronger...
I have known her for 25 years, and it was obvisous she was a Narcasist years ago - even more so with the rubbish she posts on social media.
I'll be honest - when i read your post a few days ago, the first person i thought of was her.
Then there is the pilot sitch - this isnt normal.
You jumped from wanting EX back to dating / pilot in a matter of posts.
You really need to look into Cluster B discorders. NPD and BPD are very similar. Unfortunetly, people with cluster NPD / BPD rarely admit it or want help.
The fact that your consistenly never ackowledge you need IC speaks for itself...
KK, this post isnt meant to be harsh - i just hope it makes you reflect.. Some of the stuff you write / actions are not healthy..
Best of luck
I get it. I'm willing to admit and look into BPD.
As for the abuse... I struggled with all the "good" things with these "bad" things... like things could be so "good".
Its documented. My son sees a psychologist and psychiatrist. My son had to listen to him screaming at me and how he was going to hurt me... he called my mother who came with the police. I've had to dial 911 when he was throwing a plate of food and then kicked out the tail light of my vehicle because I did not want to go go-karting... the police arrived that night but he had taken off in a car prior to them getting there. Crazy part??? He came home and we all went go-karting. My kid was so traumatized and so anxious he punched me in the arm so hard I fell to the ground. YUP - I realized I just raised 2 boys to behave this same way. My step son had a similar incident a month later with breaking windows and brawling with his father.
NO one outside my son and my STBXH knows how hard my kid hit me. I couldn't move my left arm for a week.
This is one of MANY episodes. You can pull up police logs to residences... they exist.
My STBXH threw a trash can so hard in the house when SS21 would not do what he was told he put a hole in the wall.
I can keep listing them but I do NOT want to live there anymore.
No I will not claim "victim". I stayed and choose to look past and move on each and every time. But, I will not let anyone treat me that way again.
And, why did it take so long to ever mention any of this??? SHAME. FEAR.
If I tell you then it really happened. If only 3 people know... it didn't happen.
Judge me if you want. I'm no longer hiding behind SHAME.
