I was scared of always loving my X. I sat with this thought and was going down a thinking trail on that when I remembered a convo I had with an old friend. He had called me when he heard I was getting a divorce.
He cheated on his wife and they divorced. He wanted to work it out, she didn't. She left him and she has since moved on. They divorced about 2 years ago.
He said that the most loving thing I could do for my X was to let him go. Ok, I knew this already, but he said "Hope, you can love him until the day you die, but this is what loving him looks like. Letting him go."
When put like that, all the guilt and anxiety just faded away. Especially coming from the "other side".
Trying to not love him wasn't the point. My healing and moving forward was. Whether or not I still loved X didn't and couldn't determine my next steps.
The reality was - he was no longer my H and I had a life to live.
I know you will be ok. We are here for you.
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
