Leaving it behind.

[97Hope]

Hi sweet (((Mar))))

I'm still standing, but as DnJ puts it - I'm standing for my own beliefs and values.


I have no regrets with how I chose to stand for my marriage. I have no regrets in honoring my vows and choosing kindness and love. I know deep down I did all I could.

I did what I would have wanted my spouse to do for me if I was going through something.

My X is in great torment. I would have no peace had I went scorched earth from the beginning. I think God had a way to protect me and give me strength to do this with integrity and while I certainly didn't do it perfectly, I have such peace.

I also have such love for my X it's amazing. It's not the same. I'll try to explain. I love him enough to leave him to his journey. I love him enough to be kind in my thoughts and prayers for him. I love him enough to let him go. I don't want anything from him. I don't want to see or speak to him, but if/when I see him for family events - I can be kind.

I couldn't ask for more at this point. Before DB I probably have gone nuts and lost my head and told him what a dirtbag he was and refused to ever see him again. This would have been so much messier for my kids who truly don't deserve any of this!

This whole journey has and is changing me. Like you, I chose and continue to choose: Faith, Hope & Love.