Summary - My W and I have been together, in a lesbian relationship, for 21 years. First BD was Memorial Day 2019. Second BD August 2019. Tried to save marriage for a year. W gives me the ILYBIANIL Sept 2020. Been separated ever since. She is having an affair with OW, that is a co-worker, but continues to deny it.
I temporarily left home over 2 months ago but will be returning on January 22 to get all my affairs in order and figure out what I will be doing with the rest of my life.
As the date gets closer my anxiety is starting to increase. Have no idea how I will manage the in-house separation. Determined to DB appropriately and detach as much as possible.
Despite all of the lying and cheating I cannot fathom a life without her. When we married it was sincerely a life long commitment on my part. Never imagined hearing my W tell me that she was no longer in love with me and did not want the marriage. It'e been 3.5 months since we separated and it hasn't gotten any easier. Still struggling with the pain and anger on a daily basis.
