STEVE 85 --- If I didn't say anything then it never happened. Does that make sense?
I couldn't admit it to myself. Let alone anyone else. Even those that saw - my mother. I still denied.
So yeah... this has been an undercurrent in my M for years... but I used to balance it against the things that were good.
Avoiding it and denying it doesn't make it go away. You owe it to yourself, everyone else in your life, and all the people that will be in your life in the future to take care of this the right way. IC. I believe it more than ever that you are suffering from PTSD.
KC, you're a good, successful, and educated person. You deserve the best life that you can give yourself!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
