By all means, DO NOT SEND THAT EMAIL. LBSs always think that long, heartfelt messages will win back their WAS. You are falling back to behaviors that won her over during dating, those tactics will not work to win her back.

I agree with others, your OP is very scattered, it is obvious you are freaking out. Calm down, you are going to be fine no matter what. Please give some more details about your situation and the collective experience of the posters that have been through it can help you.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018