NC is statistically the best way to get her back. Do not contact her and only break NC if she is beating the door down trying to get you back. Stay NC for at least 30 days IMO. Google exgfrecovery. I found this on a podcast that Michele Weiner Davis was on a couple of times.
Formulate plan to get yourself healed and better.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.