So I high lighted some things below that IMO are manipulation. Also with my second read through I have to be honest with you and you are probably not going to like this but you are very emotional and that is not attractive to women. You should read "How to be a 3% Man" by Corey Wayne and "The Way of the Superior Man" by David Deida. You should become familiar with Masculine and Feminine energy.
Originally Posted by 1stLove
I did not take that conversation to great and begged to try out different approaches as I am sure we can fix this.
We have gotten so far, have worked on our R so much and this happens to 1/3 of all R. But she was quite determined and said that I have convinced her before that we should work on our R and it never 100% felt to be her decision.
I became desperate and said things I regretted once I said them, like if you leave me I will kill myself (I told her not much later that I said that in impulse and that I wouldn’t do it, but once it’s said the damage is done anyhow).
The day after we talked a bit more on a walk and I tried to explain her how I see things, but I also understood that she has made her mind up for now.
I just cant handle vague areas and I feel I pressured her to take a stand – I feel a bit like an idiot on that one.
I started to stop fighting and accepting in a way that I have done the 2 previous times – if this is what you need then I won’t be in your way. I want you to be happy and love you no matter what.
Originally Posted by 1stLove
Yes, there is fear and I guess it is fear of being alone and not knowing what the future will hold (we made quite elaborate plans together) - I know rationally stupid but anyhow. I have phases this time where I am not afraid anymore and can see myself being by myself again though.
Guess what 1ST NO ONE knows what the future holds, I bet last New Years Day you didn't think that next year you would be in the middle of a pandemic did you?
