In addition to above, I might have made another post BD mistake -
It doesn't really share any secrets etc. and I think it would be helpful for her to read about it because it shows what was wrong in our relationship. But might of course just be another mistake and now she might think I am trying tricks.
Just saw this got deleted - I basically shared with her a video from the NMMNG author where he talks about the sexual differences in men and women - thought that it showed a lot of patterns of our relationship. I kind of know that she might not want to see that stuff bc she wants to be left alone, but it was really interesting. From now on I will keep NC until she comes back.
I just feel that I have made so many mistakes in the last 3 days that it will be hard to get together again. Begging, saying that I cannot live without her and I don't see a future for myself without her before I tell her that I want her to be happy and figure her life out. Also sending her that video doesn't help.
Regarding marriage, we never really planned to get married so far as in Sweden living together has more or less the same legal standard as marriage. We planned for children this year though towards the end to start trying - so ofc better to figure this out before and not have a child and then S.
