KC, thanks for sharing, that's very interesting. If nothing else it should at least give you some hope that you're not in this alone. You have a support group here and also in your real life, and perhaps in some kind of guardian angel or spirit watching over you.
And just a reminder to all of us, me included- KC and others here are going through a very difficult time just like we all have. Let's try to advise them while remaining sensitive to their suffering, and gentle in our comments.