All i can say that its normal to do so. 9 months in here and things are good, as in when i think about 6 months ago or even 2 months ago, i realise how far i have come. How steady i am now and like AS every time i look back i realise that im making progress almost without realising it because life does go on. We have very little say in what happens in our lives in terms of events, sudden changes, what we do have control over is how we respond to them. I did not expect to be in this position 10 months ago, but hey im here and looking back this so needed to happen. Im a different person, still me, just a better version.
Indy when you have kids, you will experience love, the kind of love where the more you put in, the more you love, its will be unconditional, because you will love your kids when they throw tantrums, have meltdowns, they might even tell you they hate you at some point, but you will love them with no conditions. Love for another adult is so so different, it is full of conditions that we set out, full of needs thAt we desire to be met by another person.
When you read this in a couple of months you will see progress, there will still be things that bother you, but there will be less of them. Read your first thread, dont you think you have done so well dealing with all of this? I do!
Dont be too hard on yourself, on the days when i want to cry, i do just that-cry. On the days i want to put my earphones in and go for a walk to clear my head i do just that. Dont suppress your emotions, let them be in a safe place.
Life is pretty amazing you know, i teach my children daily to notice the little things, the sun, the moon, the beautiful sky. I tell them everyday before school that they will have a good day because they can make their day good regardless of what happens.
