The date on Saturday was a very interesting person. We met at a favorite place of mine but the last time I was there was with the pilot so it was a little difficult at first - constant reminder. Weird though because my STBXH and I went there several times.
Sundays date was a little interesting. I had 2 drinks but they were strong and I was super chatty.
So here I sit. Its Monday.
LH likes to say I'm a narcissist. But, I know 100% that I am not. However, I'm starting to be concerned if I have BPD. I do absolutely no self harm behaviors/no suicidal behaviors. Only 1 issue like that in my past but I was sleep deprived and had an physically abusive boyfriend at the time... my parents were going through a divorce and I blamed it on stress and all the pressures other people were putting on me. Once the negative components got removed - the boyfriend was gone and I removed my mother from life for a couple of years - life got WAY better. Never had that issue of self harm ever show up again.
I need to look into this more but I think BPD is me....
