You are trying to change yourself for a guy who clearly wants someone different, you will never be able to please him.
I went on three dates not that long ago, with the same person, but we both recognised that this wasnt going anywhere and we werent even ready for anything, so we just parted ways and thats ok. No more dates for me for a while :))
I liked him, but i couldnt be myself with him! I was the one talking and he was very quiet, i didnt expect him to change and he certainly wasnt going to. Early on dating you shouldnt even bloody worry about changing yourself for anyone, you are brilliant and amazing and the right person will come along when you are ready! KC you simply arent ready, neither am i yet.
But you need to change your mind set, you are not abandoned, you are free to choose. You are not desperate to bag a man, you will not settle for any less than being treated with ultimate respect and acceptance.