“Why am I so desperate for this guys attention” is exactly something you should be figuring out in therapy instead of lining of more bandaids/ dates.
But for some reason you are ok with recognizing That you have destructive habits and patterns but don’t seem so interested in getting to the root of fixing them, instead you just keep plowing along on the same destructive path.
Why is that? Why are you openly willing to recognize your behaviors are problems, but you don’t want to address it? Are you scared of the work it requires? Because you don’t seem like someone who isn’t afraid of hard work
