First time in my life I’ve spent New Year’s Eve alone. First year in 25 I didn’t have sex. 2020 was the worst year yet. Thank God it’s over. I know that with the calendar things don’t change, and 2021 is going to be hard too. I’ll lose half of what I have worked for and get divorced. But I’m not in limbo, there is movement. I can make my own decisions, so there are some positives. I wouldn’t wish my last year on anyone, and really most of the real pain was in the last three months. I’m going to bed early, I’ll work out in the morning, go to church, get my kids, and watch some football. Today is behind me and tomorrow is ahead, it will be better.
