I did great with my kids for the holidays, and I’ve been doing a lot of new stuff at work. I only know this stuff about my WW because she tells me. I posted it here because I’m starting to understand how F’d up she is. To her this is some sick game, some oops I messed up on this OM, it’s okay my H will take care of me until I find next OM. I just wanted to post that I’m seeing it now. I thought there was something I did that caused this, that if I stopped doing it this could change. I just finally see that isn’t the case. That’s all it is.
I got to that point because of you guys, time and IC. I blamed myself a LOT up until recently. My son is going to start therapy tomorrow he has taken this terribly hard. I’ve done the most I can to distract him and make his life good but he has been really confused and angry with it all. I’m looking forward to 2020 being over. I know I’ll be okay I time, so will my son. I just wanted to post some of the stuff that I have been finally understanding about her due to all of this going on. I know my M has been over for a long time, if it wasn’t this OM it would have been another at some other point, it took me a lot of work to stop blaming myself for all of it.
I’m sleeping and eating again finally. Talk to my sister again more than ever, doing really good at work. Things are starting to get better every day and I’m starting to get used to this little by little. Spend all day other day painting nails with my Daughter and making jewlrey. She loved it. Will go and fly a drone with my son on Friday. The post wasn’t about saving my M it was about realizing this wasn’t all my fault finally. I haven’t had terrible anxiety for about 2 weeks. It’s been getting a bit easier.
T:11 M:10 K: D5, S7 BD: 9/1/20 WW continues to break up and recon with OM. I paid last fees and pushed the D 5/3/2021 Default Dissolution granted 8/5/21. Glad my D was not busted.
