Steve, This has got to stop. You need to focus on the kids and yourself. Your W isn't going to need to "sew her wild oats", shes been doing it the entirety of your marriage. She doesn't need to be single or away from you to do that. You know of what..5 or 6 affairs? How many don't you know about?
I'm not trying to heartless or mean, but you have kids that need you, and you can't get out of your own way/head to be the father they need.
Your marriage is over. It's been over. And even if she comes back, it's still over. She isn't your forever.
Your kids are though. Focus on them!!
Me: 40 EX:37 Together 17 years Married 16 years 5 kids, 20,18,15,14,11
