Well KK as they say “today is the first day of the rest of your life”.
You have a clean slate and what you do with it is up to you. If you give your best self and it’s not good enough you can walk away with your head held high knowing you have your best self.
No more chasing after people trying to get away from you and blaming on your behavior.
You are a work in process so keep working on yourself and self respect.