You aren’t hooked on him. You are hooked on the feeling that the bandaid gives you.
Rip off the band aid. It’s the only way to do it. Hurts like hell, but it’s better than the prolonged chronic pain in the long run if you don’t
And quite lying to yourself. If you H wanted back, you wouldn’t hesitate and pilot knows it. Even if you file for divorce, he still knows it.
IDK -- I'm certain OW is living with H. If H suddenly called me up and wanted to fix the M I would not be all in. I would be skeptical and the last thing I would be looking for would be a false start where he would appear to all in and then bail again after 3mo. No... I don't think I would jump. I might raise an eyebrow.
I have a list of things that would have to happen for me to even consider.
And, frankly the strongest reason I might even attempt to work on anything is because I feel a strong commitment to my M and my vows. But, that man would have to jump through some hoops. Yes, our recent conversation shows that even in the midst of a crappy D we can be kind to each other and that he can get help with puppy. Which then tells me if he put in the work I believe this M could be saved.... but there is the crutch... he has to put in the work. History tells us he will go the path of least resistance which is OW.
But, my female bff was snooping last night. I never do. I don't want to know. She will make comments like OMG... and I'm like I DO NOT WANT TO KNOW. But, last night she was like... no, no, no... she just posted this meme about how every girl deserves a guy that doesn't lie or cheat. HOLY COW... yes we both burst out laughing and I was like well maybe one of us should tell her then that this is NOT her guy. At least I still have a small sense of humor.
At least I still have a small sense of humor.