Hey, vu! I definitely have come to an acceptance of my feelings. Everything is what it is now, it all kind of [censored] and there is nothing I can do about it. So I just don’t sit it anymore and I just go about my days. Maybe one day things will get better. For now, it is what it is. May I still be sad and lonely, it’s not weighing me down anymore and that’s a good thing I think. Better than it was, anyways, lol.
Today, I got my First dose of my Pfizer covid vaccine. Today 3 young patients who have really been fighting, died COVID. A 41 year old, a 55 year old, and 38 year old. The 38 year old had no comorbidities. He could have soared to lose 20 lbs like me, but I don’t think that should be a death sentence for him. It’s truly devastating. And then we found out Matt the sand which guy in the cafeteria died. He always had the biggest smile, always would talk to you and ask how your day was going and joke around with you. He took a lot of pride in the sandwiches he made too. Rumor has it it was COVID, but I don’t think so because he was last seen making sandwiches early last week. My heart is just broken. It was been a rough day today. Our ER is also getting absolutely slammed. Nothing is going away soon, and it is disheartening . I don’t see a light at the end of this tunnel because I think there are just too many who refuse the vaccine and refuse to mask. I’m praying doing my part with help something .
We got introduced to a new physical therapist today. Who happened to be my friend high school and we had crushes on eachother for like 3 years, but never did anything about it. He’s now married to a gorgeous woman . Sigh. I let the good ones get away.
Anyways. I atleast have dinner plans with a friend on New Years. I’m happy to have anything going on, but will be ringing in the new year alone. Which I’m thankful for, because midnight at a party with other couples is really awkward.
