Listen. I’ve been there. In my early broken state, I’ve done stuff that was embarrassing and desperate appearing. All you can do is move on and LEARN FROM IT. The more you try to do undo it, the worse it will get.
You realize you don’t know what you want, you are trying to bandage a wound in the very wrong place which is only causing more damage.
Stop looking for attention in all the wrong places. Who is this married man you are texting?
You are spinning out of control looking for anything to take away the pain and those very things are causing you more pain.
Stop. Take a breather. Very strongly consider therapy. It will be very helpful. Look for all the healthy ways to soothe yourself. You’ll get through this. But the point is you have to get through it. Can’t get over it, can’t get under it, through it is the only way
