You had starting beginning your OLD Adventures that you are separated and looking for fun. You said you were clear that you weren’t looking for anything serious. I am not surprised at his reaction at all. He thought he was getting some married woman looking for a fun time. And instead you kind of went a little clingy nutty on him.
When he realized you wanted more, he should have backed out, instead of taking what you were giving him. Maybe that’s his fault. But you claim you were very honest you were just OLD for some friends and a fun time. You got that and you tried to make it more and you are upset that he doesn’t see you as more?
I’m going to blunt. Your reactions were kind of desperate and maybe seen as a little psycho .
Do not apologize. Just drop it . But do yourself a favor and get some professional help. You can’t drown your problems in other men. You can’t drown your problems and sorrows in alcohol. You need to deal with them and get through them in a healthy way like therapy. This isn’t good. Stop treating yourself so awful. Do healthy things for self emotionally. It’s a really tough time right now. Try to take care of yourself in a healthy way
