Well the trip to Seattle was amazing.... actually stayed in Chelan right on the lake about 3 1/2hr west of Seattle. Due to Covid things were limited but still had an amazing time. I was up before the sun with the geese on lake with the beach completely to myself to watch the sunrise - beautiful!!!
The aerial tour of Rainier and St Helens was lost due to low visibility --- total bummer!!!
Had lunch with my SS20 and was able to make him 2 of his favorite pies at the condo to bring to him. Got together again a couple of days later to throw axes!!! It was good to see him though he suffers deeply from some issues.
During lunch I happened to mention that I heard SS20 dad purchased a forge... then SS20 was like "how much do you talk to my dad"... I just said I saw him when he brought puppy to office and we chatted awhile. I told SS20 we don't hate each other. SS20 replied "oh, so its not like my mom and my dad". We both laughed and I said - no it's not like that. SS20 let it drop that he was on the phone with his dad before meeting us for lunch and he let it slip to to his dad that he was meeting me and S19... apparently his dad was like "oh, what are you going to be doing".
It was a great catch up. SS20 recently lost his fiance' due to his poor choices so he's trying to heal and get his crap together. I was supportive. I told him I was Bumble when he told him he was on Tinder and we giggled. Told him I found someone I really liked and it was going okay. Then both SS20 and S19 wanted to how I met STBXH. Funny, I thought they knew the story??? Anyway told them both we met on Match and again we are all laughing.
I was surprised that STBXH texted and then called me last Monday. Apparently there was a problem with the cell phone bill. He was like - "are you still on vaca?" Uhm... yes. The timeshare sent him my itinerary so he knows I am, but whatever. I apologized as that had to be my error. He was fine with it and told me what he did and I told him I would look into it and get back to him when I was home. I then said "while I have you I want to send you a picture for some help". Basically I had identified every track on the beach except for one. So sent him the pic of tracks in snow that were a little melty. He identified it as otter!!! I was so stoked because it was just 20feet from my door. I was out ever morning before sunrise and early evening but never actually got see him. Anyway he just started opening up about how he was going to be in Seattle next spring and his Pennsylvania bike trip was on hold - I just said oh? He let me know is bff is moving to Seatlle... blah blah blah. I responded with support and not asking questions or probing but ended the convo with stating I was heading up the mountain and to have a great day.
Went about the rest of my week and was surprised again when STBXH texted on Xmas Eve if I had travel plans in March. I do - and he know this because again the timeshare sent him my travel itinerary but I was gracious and just replied I will be X the 5th-12th. He later replied would I take the puppy while he was gone for 3 weeks at the end of March. I replied "would love to"... he answered "ok, great". I did not continue the convo. I get it 1) if he's asking me it means OW is going with him --- I really don't care. 2) I'm saving him several hundred dollars by not paying 3 weeks of boarding --- this dog is WAY to active to be boarded for 3 weeks and I'd rather him be with me so don't really care that he's getting this benefit.
^^^Yup I've been friendzoned by the STBXH.... sigh.
In the meantime I'm still dealing with this stupid dopamine chemical in my brain that keeps me fixated on the pilot. I made it where I can no longer text him.... I don't see him reaching out but that's the only way I can communicate with him... if he does so first.
I have an appt with my atty in 3 days. I will be having her file for D. I hope I'm on the right path.
