It is actually surreal to look back at what happened to me in the beginning of my sitch. I mean I didn’t go off the deep end, I didn’t lose my job or do anything to blow up my life but in a way I blew up internally. It was the first time in my life where I didn’t recognize myself. I didn’t know what was going on. I didn’t know what was real from the past and I couldn’t figure out anything expect I needed my wife.
Of course it was all wrong
The problem was it took me 7 months to figure out that who I needed was me and somewhere along the way I lost that guy and I owed it to myself to find him again. I’m getting there.
In no way am I saying I’m over the hurt. It hurts daily. What I’m saying is that I’m actually living in reality now. Instead of pining over a woman who was already gone and letting hope allow me to ignore reality, I’ve accepted it.
Now my reality is that my marriage is over and my heart is broken. It’s not the best news but hey it’s something I can work with because it’s real.
I say it all the time that there is so much suffering on the board because the LBS wants the WW to be something that they are not and you can choose to ignore reality but you can’t ignore the consequences of ignoring reality.
All you can do is be the best you and as my quote says “ the right people who belong in your life will come and stay”.
It’s gonna hurt for awhile but that ok. That’s how we learn and grow through pain and suffering.
