I don't post a lot and many of the vets here have some great advise,my sitch included.
You need to drop the figurative rope. Go out and GAL - whatever that maybe, see friends/family, talk to new people, plan for a weekend away with S. Keep up the excercise its obviously working. keep up the 180's.
And stay dark apart from about S. Make and keep that as a boundary. NC made me feel a lot better. I recently deleted all my SM and especially SnapChat. STBXW was a big Snapchatter. Does she send you snaps of S or are you the only one sending snaps?
Its hard to think about what STBXW, OM and S are doing in their time but you can only control you!!!
By thinking about them you are giving them control. DROP the rope! YOU are in control.
I would bet she doesn't think or care what you are doing when you have S.
Keep up the hard work and the updates. We are all rooting for you!
