OB- I'm doing good mate. But I have had a little bit of a hard time lately. A lot of reminiscing around this time of year has made it harder. So many traditions and memories. I have tried to keep as many as i could with S3 and tried a few new ones. Which has been fun. I took your advise as i was along the same lines, I did it for S3 and not me or STBXW. I got him to pick the card and also draw in it. Some things you can be petty about but getting him to draw int he card has been happening since he could pick up a crayon. It was fun for him.
Mumin - No, I Have no expectations. In NZ and Australia it is common for children to give gifts to parents/grandparents.
R2C- Exactly my thinking. And this will continue into the future.
As said above i have found myself regressing a little in positivity lately. Not out of thinking of STBXW (I made a conscious decision to call her STBXW to progress) or to contact her but from spending time with S3 and doing firsts - first photo with Santa just the 2 of us, advent calendar time, singing Christmas carols at bed time etc. While i have loved doing all of these it has been with a tinge of sadness.
I knew i would regress or go through a few of the stages of grief again. I know that helps me slowly heal.
I have Christmas eve coming where i will be "alone". I have made plans to be not alone and will be spending it with friends, looking forward to that. I continue to GAL, 180, exercise and stay busy.
On a side note, Mods and everyone. I'm not getting any emails from the threads I follow. Can anyone help? Cheers.
