You will be ok. I ended up filing in 2019 after standing for 2 years. I am in a different place now. I have peace without all of the chaos from what my X was contributing. Look at this time as yours, to heal and freedom from the chaos. It doesn't feel like freedom yet, but now you choose what you let into your life. Be choosey. Allow only truth.
It's good to scream in the car. I've done it. One of the best things I've done is read a lot on grief and the grieving process.
I really just wanted to say - It will NOT always feel like this.
ME47 XH44, S28 S24 S19
8/17-BD IHS: 1/17-2/19 D FILED (ME): 7/19 D FINAL: 10/20 M23 T25 OW CONFIRMED: 01/21
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
