Im sorry and its ok! 9 months in and there are days few and far between when i feel like screaming and crying. Mine are generally because of how my kids feel. But its ok to feel whatever you are feeling, as long as it doesn't trigger you to do anything like contact you W. You are likely to feel something when d is finalized or if she reaches out, you arent made of stone. I find its best to live through these emotions and then let go, rather than suppress them.
