I plan to continue to grow and do the right things. Perhaps I'm using Xmas as an excuse to not go full-on DB right now. Time will tell once the new year is here and the excuse will be gone. In the meantime I am making the changes I can make for now and doing my best to GAL. I got another text last night asking why I'm being so curt and another asking why I'm so distant. So even in the small changes I've implemented, I can see the impact which encourages me to continue and do more. I don't want the death of a 1000 paper cuts, but I do want to live a lie for the next week and enjoy this time with my family as much as I can. I'm not worried about getting hopes up, mis-reading her actions, or anything like that because in the back of my head, I know. And that is what will ground me.
