You have an obsession with guys that aren’t that into you. You are determined to change their minds. You basically switched your obsession from your STBXH to the pilot.
Why are you treating yourself with such disrespect? Why are you so determined to get guys who aren’t valuing yoj to value you ?
You would really benefit some IC don’t you think ?
I am cognitively aware of this... I've been able to block STBXH out of my head 95% of the day... because of this guy. I'm 100% aware its my brain and limerance and what not with this new guy. The sex was great - that's what I'm craving. Its 100% human nature to want what you don't have -- I'm completely logical in understanding the drive. I need to break the habit. Then ultimately I don't want to break the habit.
I'm just putting my truth out there. I do recognize ALL the issues with this. I get what my triggers are.
I'm 100% aware of what a healthier relationship is... I'm working my way toward it.
