Navigating a new phase of life

[Fogg]

Thanks CanBird, I appreciate it. It is nice to be heard and know someone is listening.

My personality type has a tendency to hyper focus on the things I am not doing well, or need to improve. I am almost blind to the things I am doing well and I know that is a big problem with my mental health. As an example with J, if we're talking about something and a comment about one of the people she dated in the past comes up I tend to compare myself negatively and only see how I am "not good enough". I'm working on this, but its so damn difficult. I know on a logical level she's not with the people in the past, so there's a reason it didn't work out. I'm mindreading and overthinking things.

So, what am I grateful for. I have my kids and spend a significant time with them, more so than some people get. I've been lucky to have a pretty good co-parenting relationship with my ex. I am getting a house soon and can provide for my family, even though my expenses are pretty high. I have two degrees completed and have a pretty good outlook career wise for the future. I am relatively healthy, even if the ED stuff may be a symptom of other things to look at. I am good at my job and I am respected, people come to me for advice and support. I have a great deal of flexibility at work and I can basically do as I please without really reporting to anyone. I am in a relationship with someone who wants to be with me, who does care about me.