Yo Salty do not worry about pushing her away. She’s already gone. Things typically need to get worse before they get better in these situations.
I know you're right. The thing that's killing me now is Xmas and the boys and can I put on a happy face around her (and her mom and step dad who will be here, hooray!) and make it through it without losing my sh!t. The day after Xmas I'm already booked to get out of town, but that seems like a long way away.
