I just want to say how much I empathize. I have loosely followed along. The double betrayal of WH having an A with a good friend is an indescribable type of pain. I questioned everything I thought I knew about my life, my relationships around me and who I am as a person. I am around the same age as you and now several years has passed since my sitch started. So much will change. Sometimes the best we can do is be open to that. But always be true to yourself and your gut feelings. There are no perfect answers in this mess. I feel you, I do.
Blu
The only thing I would remove is the word "good" in front of the word "friend". No such thing in this circumstance.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018