Hard damn night and morning. No contact for almost 24 hours, which is likely the longest time we haven't spoken to each other in one form or another in 15 years. She's still out of town, but of course is near the OM she had the EA with over the summer. I'm convinced she's seeing him. Why bother denying it? Found myself yelling at the kids last night after two of them got into an argument over electronics. I completely over-reacted and I know it is because I'm wound so tight right now. As part of my GAL I've started getting up early to work out, do yoga, and meditate. So I did that this morning and after my yoga and meditation, I just lost it. It all just came out in buckets of tears. Thankfully the kids are asleep - don't want them to worry or see that. I'm going to stay strong, not reach out, not ask questions, not snoop, or anything like that. I gotta treat it like it's all already over, because it is, and go through the process.
