New Beginnings

[CanBird]

My D has been final for almost 2 months. XH has been out of state working his seasonal job, and I believe he's done, only because UI mail has come to the house. XH whereabouts is a mystery. I have a few guesses, but only him and his ow know.

We share a D4, and own a home together. Dealing with selling the home, or buying him out is on the table. Our D agreement states how to handle selling the home, but nothing about if one buys out the other.

I just started a new job, it hasn't yet been 3 months, part-time. I don't know if I can afford to take over the house on my own. It's a great home, with a small rental on the property, pool. There's also a hefty mortgage and a home loan we owe on.

I've been talking to family members, and will be consulting with a mortgage broker sometime next week. I just don't know what I can do and where to start...

I don't want to talk with XH about anything at this point, because I don't know what I want to do....

My head is spinning. I know, I'm not the first to go through this, and I won't be the last. Having to deal with this on my own [censored]. XH won't be showing up to help to anything. He left us because he "wasn't happy", and there just happens to be AO, from his past, that lives in EU. Again, I'm not the only one that's gone through this and I will be okay. Just venting I guess.

My D4 caught me looking at places, and said, OH, let's move there... I think she'll be fine, whatever the outcome is.

As much as I want to stay, I don't know if I can do it. I can't do it on my own, and having my family put up their own home as equity, just doesn't sit right. What if it all goes wrong, then what?

When will my head stop spinning