This is mainly to Mojo: Does it ever bother you that you have to be so blatant when initiating, or indicating that you want sex that night?
I am starting to feel resentful and I think that one of two scenarios is going on: 1. He knows what I want and ignores it, hoping that it will go away; or 2. He really is that clueless and needs some obvious sign from me to clue him in.
Last night he was sitting on the sofa and I laid down next to him and stretched my legs out across him (he is a certified leg man). Periodically, I would bend my legs at the knees and expose the goods to him. I should say that I was wearing a nightie with nothing on underneath. At one point I was looking at his face and saw him staring at my legs...Finally!, I thought, we are getting somewhere! But nooooooo when I glanced down at his hands I saw that he was only inspecting a mosquito bite that I have! Good GRIEF!
So we went to bed and he was almost instantly asleep, so I took his hand and placed it on me..a few absentminded strokes but sleep soon overcame him. He finally woke up enough to ML, but only after me continuing to wake him up and basically forcing the whole thing. He did say, during it, that he was glad that I persisted so I at least have that little crumb.
Now, my mood is fine for the day but I do feel resentful at times, and quite frankly jealous of the LD women who have to do NOTHING, of having to be so blatant when I want sex. I want to be able to do what I did...sit on the couch, bottomless, and stretch out on him and give him an occasional glance (if he's interested in looking, which he was not) and have that be ENOUGH. After all, his initiations are never anything spectacular or aggressive or blatant.
Thanks for listening; I am just griping today. I gotta get out of this gripy mood I've been in lately..
