I watched my other exposed friends snuggle in close with their partners and children; meanwhile I was imagining dying alone and it made me feel really, really down.
This is what all the craziness is about Sage. You can write all the post you want about you being twin flames but it comes down to this one thought. You brain rationalizes everything else because it is trying to protect you. Your brain is hardwired against rejection. 10,000 years ago if you were rejected from the tribe you would surely perish. Our brains do not evolve fast enough. In time your brain will understand you are safe and surely you won't die alone.
With time and space you will understand that it's not about your husband at all. It's about the loss of control and stability in your life.
