It's ok to cry and let it out. In fact, letting it out is exactly what you should be doing. Just don't do it in front of her.
I can recall times at work that I needed to go out to my car because I thought I was going to break down in front of all my colleagues. I also remember days where I was so distraught at work that I literally surfed Divorcebusting for the entire day looking for anything to make me feel better.
While you can't see it right now, with time you will slowly get stronger and stronger. And like LH says, eventually you won't even care what your W says or does.
Just hang in there and keep posting. We are all pulling for you.
