I get it - I'm still a hot mess. But, this hot mess is having loads of fun and hot XXX.
I think its fair to say you want to get back with H, based on previous posts.
But your admit you are broken. In your own words above.. A mess..
Why would husband or any potential long term partner want a long term relationship with you ? -by your own admission - somebody who is "broken" or "a mess"
Your are putting a lot of effort and focus into sex and looking good, but are skipping a lot of the hard work on yourself - probably becuase its hard work.
Hyperthetical question.. You are dating and sooner or later you might meet a guy you really like.. He also likes you.. Oooh perfect long term relationship material etc..
The bad news is that you are setting yourself up to fail even before it goes anywhere, as once your issues bubble to the surface, the guy will run a mile. Rational and healthy minded guys dont want a relationship with a "Hot mess" long term.
Broken attractions broken..
If you want a healthy relationship with a healthy person, sort your own mental issues out first.
Previous username - Helpme123.. A name chosen at a desperate time..
Now Mr Brightside.. coming out of my cage, and doing just fine.
