Little Gerda Goes Forward with Courage and Safety

[Gerda]

If only I could tune in to DnJ and Gerda on HGTV, but following your adventures here is the next best thing. I echo Sage in that I so admire you, Gerda. I know I'm not alone when I say your fortitude, your kindness, your writing, and your remodeling skills are an inspiration.

Cardinal, this meant so much to me. It is hard to believe but very fortifying to imagine.

I mean about me as a person but also what you said about my writing. Part of my waking up and finding myself twenty five years later, not knowing quite what happened and how, is the realization that I gave up my dream of writing to try to help H realize his creative dreams. (And he never went all the way to succeeding or finishing those things though some of his art really was truly amazing and was part of what made me love him.) And then to devote myself to being a mother and a wife. Waking up and realizing that H never encouraged me to even take an afternoon a month to myself to write, though I was always trying to give him time and money for his creative work. I won awards for my writing before I met H. And I was working in another creative field and starting to make some way into that too. And then I married H and then twenty five years went by and I woke up out of this mess. So this summer I finally finished a huge writing project I had started before H went crazy. I will not say what it's about exactly but needless to say everything that happened since I started it made it a much better work of art.

Anyway, I was very moved by what you wrote and really appreciate your taking time to write it.

And yes, stay tuned for Gerda's House Flip Heaven.