I’m making it through there day. The long nap really helped. It’s lonely, tears come and go. I FaceTimed with my daughter. I wished ex’s wife a happy birthday. I made myself lamb chops for dinner. Redoing thanksgiving is not an option. I am already doing Christmas on an alternative date. And I am having surgery next Thursday. So I’ll have to call this one a wash.

My phone decided to be cruel today and it pulls a picture out of camera roll everyday as a memory. It was one of me and M. Then I was looking through IF envying everyone’s thanksgiving and there was M’s son eating a turkey leg. His brother and I are still IG friends. He looks so much older now! I really did love that kid. I loved having “family”. Sad it needed up the way it did. I’ll never forget him though. He was such a sweet boy. M’s mom was such a mom. Not something I’ve really ever known. She loved me, I loved her. I can’t do anything about it. I enjoyed a year of it and I’ll keep my memories.

My dad wanted me to FaceTime everyone at his house. I declined . Watching others celebrate while I’m here alone wasn’t going to be good for me. I’m sure they are not happy about it, but it’s what I need for me.

Hopefully I’ll fall asleep by 8 and tomorrow is another day.

Happy thanksgiving all

Last edited by job; 11/27/20 12:31 AM. Reason: Removed daughter's name