Steve_'s LRT phase 2

[Steve_]

Yeah I probably did the wrong thing here. When she kept saying “I’m not sure about this” and stuff when we talked I thought she really meant it so I pushed into it and when it came down to choosing she stayed with him. I know I did it because I wanted the manipulation to stop, I wanted to not be plan B. I didn’t want her to have that. Should have just ignored her temp checks and kept things short. I was weak and believed them, thought if I pushed I could save it. She didn’t want to be saved. But it is what it is. I don’t think she will manipulate me anymore because there isn’t a reason to, and I don’t think she will ever come back. I don’t really think anything I could have done would change that. And hopefully I’ll get to a point where it doesn’t hurt this much anymore. It will take some time. But that’s ok I have plenty of time now. I’m just gonna practice being more silent than ever. Around everyone. I’ve always been a talker. A fixer. Those are the first things I want to change.