What would have been another anniversary came & went. It was an odd day. It did and didnt bother me. I'm so busy with my new job that I'm finding that's occupying my brain more than my x. Of course I have moments, but those are getting less & less.
My GALA (Get A Life Again) actively during my off days was water color paintings. Something I can do with my D4. I had 2 small canvases that depicted myx and I. I painted over him. It felt good. I dont do a lot, because Ive got a lot going on. But soon
Journaling is something I need to get back into. I stopped because I couldnt face the truth on paper. Now that I'm fully excepting the truth, slowly I'm seeing a shift in myself. I'm the focus again. We get off balance sometimes.
Seems every week I tell my truth to someone new. Especially because people are going to start asking. I'm just sick of holding it in. I actually think it's physically and certainly mentally effecting me. DUH. no kidding right? I've never saught counciling for myself, but might. We'll see.
My D4 has been having accidents lately. Not with me, but nanny. Today she pooped her pants. And twice has peed. Not sure whats going on. She doesn't say. Hasn't asked about her dad. I dont bring him up. Should I? Still not sure how to start the conversation. She's 4! Thinking that waiting for her to talk about it is best. I guess?
~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever
