I am dealing with the jealousy/suspicion issue from H on a daily basis now. If I don't answer my phone quick enough, if I make a decision for our family that in some very convoluted way could belie a thread of a possibility of someone else in my life, if I have plans that are not clearly defined.
On one hand I am flattered that he cares. On the other, there is a level of frustration that he is so checked out of the reality of my consuming childcare responsibilities that he could believe I even have a moment of time to be pursuing some dalliance.
But either way, it is becoming a struggle for me to deal with this dark cloud of suspicion. I am an honest and open person by nature so I am inclined to write him an email addressing all of his suspicions and then just refer back to that email when I get weary of the subtle accusations.
I am not a 'none of your business' kind of person, so going dark in this manner is not a path I will take. Not that I feel I need to justify my behavior, but I am not interested in contributing to the cycle of insecurities that will ultimately hurt our coparenting relationship.
