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I remember seeing my future literally flash before my eyes the night X said ILYBINILWY. I got on my knees, grabbed his hand, and begged him not to separate me from my baby.

This is why he is torturing you with it, Scout. Whether it's conscious or not, he knows that's how to hurt you.

Everyone here says to let things go when you can, and I do agree with that to a point as I wrote earlier, to give way but in stages, not because it's best for you but because of what is best for Sweet Little S. But I also think the MLCer is very dangerous to a child. I have said that before on your thread. My kids are older and the older kid version of what your S2 did after the "kidnapping" is shoplifting, skipping school, failing school, wrecking the house, drug use, eating disorders, etc. So I think you have to stay very strict in your communication about always doing what is best for the child. Your S has shown you that being with H can be very traumatic and being with his dad unsupervised is not best for him if his dad is harmful to his mind/heart/body. Some things you can't control but some you can. I assume your H will do a lot to show that he doesn't know how to put a kid first, and you have to have a nice thick file of that stuff and of all the times you stood your ground for your S, not for yourself.

((((Scout))))

and also

(((((((S2))))))))