24 hours later and no response. What the heck is with this guy? No acceptance or acknowledgement at all?
Unbeknownst to me, my stepdad responded to his text over the weekend. (X had sent him a message asking him to convince me to see reason). SD spoke from the heart about his experience as a LBS with a cheating wife. He said he never again woke up with his young daughters on Christmas Day after his divorce— ‘and I wasn’t even the one who left’. His advice to X was to make the most of the time he has and to respect the sacrifices I make as S2’s primary caregiver. X hasn’t responded to that either.
This is all so complicated. I cried a lot last night. But I feel at peace. By giving it away without being forced, I took away the last bit of power he had over me. I used to think I’d rather die than spend the day without S2. I remember seeing my future literally flash before my eyes the night X said ILYBINILWY. I got on my knees, grabbed his hand, and begged him not to separate me from my baby. My first thought was not for my marriage, but for my son. Christmas Day has been a talisman for me over the past 18 months. A tangible reminder that my family was not completely broken.
